Warning! Super Sappy Lovey Dovey Post About My Best Friend

You always hear stuff like "You have to love yourself before anyone else can" and I don't believe that's true. Self love is definitely very important and I agree you shouldn't chase love to make up for the lack of love you have for yourself. but the idea that you are not worthy to be loved until you learn how to love yourself I think is completely false. Everyone deserves to be loved. I think sometimes we need other people that love us to teach us how to love ourselves. Watching someone love you when your not very lovable can be exactly what you need. Susie was my person. When I couldn't find a reason to love myself she told me the reasons she loved me.

Its funny how when you love someone. You start to love the things they love. I hate cats but if she liked cats I could learn to appreciate them. and I guess that's how I learned to appreciate me. I never understood why she didn't just give up on me because I can be very difficult. She is the most patient and selfless person I know and I don't think she will every fully understand how the little things she did made such a huge difference. Our goofy little love notes, spontaneous adventures, long talks, long sitting in silences that were sometimes needed and of course all the laughter. Every time I distanced myself and tried to push her out she somehow made her way back in. Even When I refused to talk about the things that were bothering me having her sitting beside me was all the comfort I needed.

We all go through hard times and if your lucky enough to have a friend that will love you through them despite all your imperfections you have friend that's worth the world! I am so grateful for mine..

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My Fitness Journey

Fitness is more to me then going to the gym a couple times a week and making through my workout so I can go home and watch a movie. It's not about trying to look hot in a bikini or trying to look better than someone else. I started working out when I was at a very low place in my life. Honestly I just didn't really like myself. I treated myself badly and didn't require other people to treat me any different because I didn't know my own self worth. I hate to remember that girl sometimes. I wish I would have taken better care of myself and I wish I wouldn't have let people treat me like they did but I had to get to that low place in order to realize I needed to make some changes in my life. When I started going to the gym I wasn't really concerned about Health. I just wanted to look better and needed a hobby that kept me out of trouble. Even though I was just trying to improve my body I started realizing improvements in my health, my mood, how I viewed myself, and how I viewed life. The gym has become something I look forward to everyday and fitness has become more than just a hobby its a lifestyle. I love the challenge, I love crushing goals, and I want to be the best version of myself possible. I am not the same person I was two years ago. My goal is to be healthy, strong, confident and most of all happy. Everyday is another chance to be better than I was yesterday. I have a long way to go before I am where I want to be but I have literally fallen in love with fitness. I've learned that I am capable of whatever I put my mind to. I have learned to love myself and take care of myself. Its a process, I still struggle everyday but I'm learning everyday and I hope to be able to share my love for fitness with others.